my mother, the most influential person in my life...witty, hard-working- generous, intelligent, and she has a heart for everyone, a good christian.. she dreams high of me, that makes her really hard-working.. sending me to one of the exclusive schools here in the country eventhough we're not that well off...and because of that she become so selfless, even forgot to take care of herself.. three years ago, she was diagnosed of kidney malfunction.. she has to undergo dialysis at least twice a week.. it really drained our family when we found out.. financially.. emotionally.. even asked, why my mom? of all the family members.. the one who has been a bread winner even to her other siblings.. her body became weak.. but the things i admire about her remained.. she's still witty, intelligent.. sadly though, still hard-working.. she didn't let her sickness hinder the life she's living.. brave enough, three years and still standing.. the only dialysis patient who doesn't favor of being strolled in a wheelchair even if she's not feeling well.. still dreaming ahead for me.. still working just to keep me going to school.. i feel guilty that all her pain and sufferings are because of me.. last year, i decided to stop from school... not only because my tuition was a burden but i don't feel at ease when im not beside my mom.. now im celebrating my 1st year as a caregiver. no regrets.. im learning a lot.. hehe not only i know hot get BP, i also know how to inject and what medicine is needed for what.. blood sugar, first aids.. just lacking diploma and i can now go abroad! thinking back, i could be somebody else by now if only i decided to continue my college.. on the other side, my mom can be okay if not for me.. i know she's not asking for something in return but she made me love her so much and taught me to become selfless.. and now she's scheduled for transplant by the end of the month.. she offered me her life, im offering her my other kidney... not as a payback but a reciprocity of love